
I cried on New Years. Not because I was sad, or worried, or intoxicated. I cried because I had such an amazing night, and a severely awakening moment of pure clarity. I spent the evening with amazing friends and a wonderful man. I ate and was merry, then stopped at a photobooth to top my early evening off. When I came home and laid in bed at the early hour of 10:30 pm, I smiled widely and knew, I had nothing to resolve this year.
Not that I think resolutions mean anything anyway. People seldom keep them and they are usually quite in vain. This year, I chose to not be a part of it. This year I chose to be thankful, blissful, and just down right happy. I have no fear of not keeping goals to cuss less, lose weight, save money, or whatever people resolve to do. I will simply count each and every blessing in my life.
I have amazing children. One more of them on the way. I can't afford anymore kids, but we make do with what we have, and we have a beautiful life. We have love, and art, and music, and dancing, and delicious food. If that was all I had, it would be enough.
I have a (CUSS WORD COMING CLOSE YOU EYES IF YOU'RE SCARED) fucking magnificent man. He is there to care for me, the kids, the house, and my mood swings. He shows me nothing but unconditional love every hour of the day. I wake up every single day knowing I am with the one person in the world who is truly meant for me. I have never felt love like this in my life, and I am surely thankful I have it now.
I have great friends. I know we all have good friends and this one is simple, but I love my friends. I never have to worry about counting on anyone, they are always there in my hour of need, and my hours of celebration.
I have a really fun blog with great interactive readers. I am gainfully self employed selling my favorite thing in the world. I know when I started this I had no job and I still don't really have any tangible life skills, so I invented a job doing what I love. In the past 3 years it has grown immensely and I am actually feeling like I am a business owner, not just a yard seller. I feel super proud of that.
I have a roof over my head, great family, and endless possibilities for my future. I love my life.
So then, that is all I have to say on New Years, and resolutions, and cussing on my blog.
Go forth, count your blessings, and for pete's sake...
Eat. Drink. And be frickin' Merry.
(yes, I might have cried writing this post. don't judge me, I am pregnant and therefore hormonal.)